At least it's what I'm trying to do. ok,I was watching a show yesterday and the topic was about Darfur,i think it's a place somewhere in Africa,West Sudan,(I think I heard it right,I'll do the research later)So anyway,they featured all this people from that place,how they live they everyday life,children,women,all kinds and I felt so GUILTY!,but it's not like I'm gonna pack my stuff and just go there to help but deep within,I feel like I have to do something but I know I can't (at least for now) and I realized how much time I spend complaining about every little things that didn't go the way I wanted it to be and those people,they have all the valid reason to complain,but they don't have time to do that, instead they are so thankful just to manage to live life one day at a time.For so many days,i was like,I need this,I need that,i want it etc..etc..but watching that show is like a wake up call.I mean we have so much and they have none but yet they are so hopeful.They are starving,literally and yet I just checked our refrigerator this morning and what I saw are just bunch of food that we bought but wasn't able to consume because we have so much and now all those food will just go to the trash, some are partly bitten and some are still unopen,I don't wanna do it but I have to and I hope not to do it anymore.
    Then I saw my boys,full of energy,spend the day playing,you know live a child life as it supposed to be lived, unlike those kids,a seven years old have to walk a mile fetching a pail of water and going to school barefooted with a piece of bread to eat for the whole day.GOD,I wanna do something about it and I hate it because I can't and I don't know how to start,the least thing I can do is to donate money at least for now and if God's will,someday I wanna see the place and help them.
    I remember when I was in college,I was a part of this certain non-profit organization called HOPE (Helping Other People Everywhere)and I don't know if they are still active with their program,so anyway,what we do is we give medical assistance to some depressed area in the Philippines and I still remembered our assigned location,it was the Smokey Mountain.  I miss those times,I missed giving help, it's not much but it feels great knowing that you can at least helped them in a simple way like that.